IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK
I made my slow way down the corridor toward the Sunday school room, uncertain if I wanted to go in. It was the first Sunday of the school year and my first day in a new class in our relatively new church. Raw and exhausted from the rigors of the previous six months and the realities of the last seven days, I had little desire to sit among the established members of the mom’s prayer group I’d opted to join.
Six months before, both my daughters had been hit hard with health issues leading to diagnoses of painful and potentially debilitating chronic illnesses. That week had brought new and worsening symptoms for both of them.
When it was my turn to tell a little about myself, the “about myself” was really about our family’s journey into chronic illness. “It’s been a rough year so far and the past few days have been overwhelming. Don’t be surprised if I just sit and listen to you pray rather than try to pray myself.”
That is what I did — only I didn’t just listen. I wept until the class ended and I was free to leave.
I’d almost made it out the door when another mom said, “Hold on, Natalie.” Her name was Leisa, and although I’d never met her, I knew who she was. I’d prayed for her daughter who’d been in the university hospital for months during the previous fall and winter battling a chronic condition.
Leisa continued, “I was at a conference once where the speaker had gone blind when she was fifteen. In the middle of her presentation, she said she had something to say to those of us who had sick kids. She said that most of the time, it’s harder for the moms than the kids.”
She paused. I don’t remember what I said or if I said anything. All I know was that something inside me relaxed — and I was grateful.
Then Lesia said something else. “I’ve been at this a few years, so I have a lot of experience finding my way around the medical system. If you ever need to talk . . .” Again, I was grateful.
I didn’t need to talk, at least not then — but I did need to know I wasn’t alone.
IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK: FINDING EMPATHY
It was at that moment I began to sense something time has since revealed to be true: parents of chronically ill kids are the best people. They’re the best at encouraging without offering advice. They’re the best at listening without trying to one-up with their own story. They’re the best at offering empathy that comes from having walked a similar road. I could learn from these parents.
I am learning from them.
None of us would choose this life—not for ourselves and especially not for our children.
The clay, however, does not get to choose (Isaiah 45:9 ESV). It only knows it’s being formed, and no matter what it’s being made into, it must first be wedged to make it more pliable, to work out any hard places, to remove any pockets of air that would cause it to explode in the kiln. Wedging, a process involving throwing the clay down (hard and repeatedly), cutting it apart, rolling it up, again and again, prepares the clay for the shaping process. Only after being worked and worked again is the clay ready to be molded, glazed, and kilned.
IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK: FINDING COMFORT
None of this fits my romantic notion of the potter at the wheel, damp and curved clay in his cupped hands, gently shaping it into his vision for use and loveliness. It seems more like an exercise in suffering. It resembles life with chronic illness —and it mirrors living in the painful tension of the mystery that God works what is not good together for good.
We are comforted that we might comfort others (2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV). Parents of chronically ill kids receive this comfort far too early in their children’s life. For this reason, we are uniquely equipped to comfort others, if only by sharing the much-needed truth they are not alone in their suffering.
A year after my conversation with Leisa, my daughter decided that it would be best for her to take a year off from competitive robotics so she could focus on restoring her physical and emotional health. She was part of a world-class team and had been a team captain. Her dad was one of the coaches. Both she and my husband grieved, even though they knew she’d made the right choice.
Not long after this, my husband got a call from a robotics friend asking him to expand his involvement in the organization. When my husband told him that he wouldn’t be participating at all that year and why, his friend’s upbeat, let’s-do-this tone quieted.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “We’ve been walking through juvenile diabetes for eight years. I know it’s a lot. If you ever need to talk . . .”
A Voice of Chronic Joy® & Writer
Natalie is a wife, a mom, and a reluctant hiker who has learned that finding her way in the woods helps her walk by faith in everyday life. She writes and speaks to encourage others to navigate the landscape of life by faith rather than autopilot.
13 Verses to Lean Into
Lean into these verses, write them in a journal, choose one or two to memorize, and then think about who else might need to read them too. The Word of God is alive and powerful, able to bring us comfort in a way that nothing else can.