Breaking Through My Clouded Dawn with God’s Light

Let the sunrise of your love end our dark night.
Break through our clouded dawn again!
Only you can satisfy our hearts,
filling us with songs of joy to the end of our days.
(Psalm 90:14)

WHAT CAN BREAK THROUGH MY CLOUDED DAWN?

As I read the Scripture, my mind agreed with that phrase: “break through our clouded dawn again!” No matter how sunny the actual day was, brain fog seemed to wrap every morning with a cloud that penetrated down deep into my bones. How could such a deep cloudiness reside within me every day, and how would I ever rise with joy in the morning? I longed to find those songs of joy the Psalmist spoke of.

My search for meaning took me down a winding path. When I looked up the Hebrew meaning for the word “satisfy” at Biblehub’s website, I found that it means to be sated, satisfied, or surfeited. Those are words that we rarely use nowadays, so next I went to Merriam & Webster’s online Dictionary to find out what the words “surfeited” and “sated” actually mean. Sated was a little easier, as I recognized this meaning: “to appease by indulging to the full/sate one’s thirst.” But that word “surfeit” is a little older in its use, meaning: “to feed, supply, or give to surfeit (archaic: “to indulge to satiety in a gratification, such as indulgence of the appetite or senses”)

BREAKING THROUGH WITH GOD’S LIGHT

Could it be that the Psalmist is giving us permission to ask God for a filling of our lacking, even in our state of hazy morning brain fog? But what struck me as even more amazing in the meanings is this: Could it be possible that the Lord wants to fill us beyond our asking with an OVERFLOWING of satisfaction in HIM?

I paused in my morning fogginess and there arose in my heart such a longing to find that kind of satisfaction. And in the longing, the light of God’s presence began to shine. The breaking through was beginning. The very Word of God had illuminated one of the hardest moments in my days. God had lifted the haze for me to uncover the deepest desire in my heart that is known only to Him. I long to commune and know my Savior more, but I am unable to find that way myself. He made a way to break through the clouded dawn of my heart. And that is exactly what He wants to give me.

Only God can part the fog, and only He can break through my clouded dawn. In my searching, He met me. In my hunger, He showed me where filling is to be found. And in my crying out, He created a song.

JOIN ME IN PRAYER

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for understanding our hearts so much better than we know ourselves. Thank you for uncovering those places where we are so hungry to know you. We face the fog of our woundings and weaknesses, and we try to muddle through them on our own. And all the while You are waiting to show us that only You can fill our deep longing with the gift of Yourself. Help us to cry out to You from the midst of our dark night. Help us to lift our eyes toward You even when the dawn feels too clouded to see. Please break through our clouded dawn. Thank You that our hearts are satisfied when we meet with You. We are OVER-flowing and filled with satisfaction here in our prayers with You.

In your name we pray,

Amen.

Questions For Reflection

1. Have you experienced days of “clouded dawns”? Where did you turn? Which words of Scripture brought breakthrough?

2. What is your greatest longing, your deepest heart-desire?

3. When has your hunger been satisfied? When has your crying out metamorphosed into song?