my chronically ill family member hates me

If love is forever, what is one troubling year or month or decade? ~ Emily J.M.

My chronically ill spouse, friend, family member hates me … and I’m beginning to suspect that I hate them back.

These are BIG words.

Painful, awful words.

But so is being hurt by someone you love. Dislike just doesn’t do it justice.

When we’ve invested a lot of time and emotional energy into a difficult relationship, it can be devastating when it crumples. This is especially true when our partner or friend is battling a chronic illness.

If our ill family member yells at us or threatens to leave, it can also be shameful. Fighting with your hospitalized grandmother, complaining about your chronically ill brother… it just seems wrong.

But it happens.

So what do you do?

3 Questions to Ask when Chronic Illness Threatens your Relationship:

  • What is it that is making us believe our relationship is under threat?
  • Is it something concrete?
  • Is it something more subtle?

Here are a few common reasons:

  1. We feel taken for granted. It hurts because our loved one doesn’t seem to realize all we’ve sacrificed and all we are doing. They don’t express their gratitude enough or in the right ways.
  2. They are actively hurting us with their words. Our chronically ill partner puts us down or is overly critical. They attack our way of doing things and constantly compare us to others.
  3. They refuse to do small things to make our lives easier. They seem wrapped up in their own pain, and never ask how we are.

What specific things do you find difficult in your relationship? Can we blame the chronic illness?

This question is important. Not because we ought to use their illness as an excuse to write off their actions or pardon atrocities, but we need to take sickness into account.

Why?

Because illness changes people. If we are in pain, our tempers are shorter, and it’s harder to remain positive. I think we owe it to our ill family member to remember this.

After all, wouldn’t we want others to take it into consideration for us?

Questions to Ask:

Is there something specific that is bothering them? Are they in a lot of pain? Have they received bad news? Are they under more strain or stress than normal? Have they slept enough? Are they worried about something?

Do they have an outlet to express their frustration? Are exercise, distraction or other social encounters possible for them? Or are you the only option?

Are our expectations for them the same as for others? Do we find it easier to forgive our work colleagues or ourselves or our distant relatives? Have we subtly come to believe that they ought to be more patient because of their illness or because of what we do for them?

Could the problem actually be us? Are we hypersensitive because we’re at the end of our emotional tether? Are we bothered by issues which we used to let slide? Are we under stress or having a bad week?

When to Leave the Relationship:

After we’ve consider the questions above, what should we do? There are only two options: we love or we leave.

Sometimes we live on tender hooks, just waiting for the argument which will end it all. Will it be this crisis or this shouting match or this betrayal?

Living like this is stressful and it’s exhausting. We can find ourselves asking the same questions over and over. Is this it? Is this the end?

It’s also dangerous. After all, it’s hard to deeply invest in relationships when we’re waiting to see if they will last.

We need to choose.

We need to decide whether we will love our chronically ill spouse, stick with them and champion for them no matter what – or whether we will let them go.

What to Do if You Choose to Stay:

If we make the decision to stay, that’s the end of the matter. The issue of anger or frustration becomes immaterial. If love is forever, what is a troubling year or month or decade?

That’s not to say it’s easy. Our loved ones words might still make us weep. There will be days when we are frustrated at the sight of them.

But that’s okay. Love is a choice. It’s a choice to keep going. Love says there are more important things, because we’re in this for the long haul.


*First published November, 2017, at calledtowatch.com. **Republished with permission.


Note: There is an important difference between difficulties in a relationship and abuse. If you’re unsure, ring a helpline or talk with someone trusted and removed from the problem. Illness is not an excuse for abuse.

Post photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash

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Emily J.M.

Emily J.M.

Emily works in healthcare and believes we are all called to love suffering people, because that’s what Jesus did. She is passionate about equipping and encouraging others to do just that, and is the author of the website www.calledtowatch.com. As well as uncovering God’s presence in lives filled with disease and disability, she enjoys running, reading, writing fiction and reflecting on life at www.gloryafterwards.wordpress.com.

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