When God Says, “Go!”

CJOnEaglesWingsIt was a moment when time stood still, a moment I could feel in the marrow of my bones.


Each piece. Every place. The accident. The illness. The loneliness and isolation. The places I’ve worked. The positions I’ve held. The reasons I write and the reasons I don’t. My photography.

Each piece. Purposed.

It was a word that clotted in my throat for eight long years, hard-edged and jagged.

Allowed was a gentler word, softer, a word that could hover and sway at the edge of my days, a word I could scoop in my hand and look in the eye.

But purposed?

No.  Purposed was not allowed the light of day.

Till my phone rang on January 1st.

“Happy New Year!” I greeted my friend.

She paused, then without even hello, quietly spoke six words, and time stood still.

“We’re supposed to start a ministry,” she said.

I know.

For 700 days, I’d waited, and in 28 letters, God said, “Go.”

So we did. We talked and read and planned. We wrote and met and dreamed our thin-shelled human dream, till God stepped in.

Wriggle. Crack. Purpose pecked that fragile shell, emerged with still-wet wings, hopped at the edge of the blue, and flew!

As we stood in awe.

Wordless and amazed.

It’s been 16 weeks since God said, “Go.” We thought we knew what He was calling us to do, but we had absolutely no idea. He simply said, “Go,” and we did.

God called us to meet with senior church leadership and ministry founders. We were asked to videotape our story for a women’s conference, so we did, only to have it pulled from the line-up hours later, because God had even bigger plans. Our video was re-taped and released under our brand new ministry name, which is incorporated! We’re on our way to becoming a 501c3 non-profit, with an incredible Board of Directors, because someone graciously stepped up and offered his expertise. We have a website and growing social media communities. Conversation is beginning. We have a logo and business cards, notecards, and a tagline. God has opened the door to a syndicated radio interview, and we’re writing curricula. We have a bank account.

And we are overwhelmed. In all the best ways.

Because this has nothing to do with us and everything to do with God.

For who are we?

We are purposed.

Intended for this place. At this time. With our five small loaves and our two small fish. Because He called, and we said yes. Stepped to the edge of the nest with our still-wet wings and flew.

On eagle’s wings. In His strength.

Purposed was a word that clotted in my throat for eight long years, but today?

Today, I can taste purposed on my tongue like manna.

“…but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

Cindee_HeadshotCindee Snider Re is wife of 25 years to the man she loves most in this world, mama of five world-shaking creatives (15-23), writer, photographer, craver of quiet, and lover of cotton, denim, Jesus and Earl Grey tea. Cindee and four of her five kids have Ehlers-Danlos III, dysautonomia, and myriad co-existing conditions.

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19 Comments Leave a comment

  1. When God is ready, things move fast! I’m so happy for this ministry and I pray for you as you are willing. I am in that place of waiting now and can’t wait for the revealing. God bless you and Pamela.

  2. Cindee, I don’t have words to describe how beautiful, moving and inspiring your words and your ministry are. Thank you for opening your tender heart to walk with others toward chronic joy, even in the pain.

  3. I read this, your words, and I smile. For years I’ve gotten your posts by email & I’ve felt connected to you – a complete stranger. “Met” because I saw a snippet of poetry with a photo that captured my heart at that moment. I’m excited for you my stranger-friend, excited at the doors & hearts God will open for you, your words, your heart, your faith. Keep going.

  4. Cindee, I love this poetic, beautifully written word. It’s so heart-warming and inspiring to hear how God has led you to starting up this ministry. As one who desperately needs to seek joy in the midst of chronic illness, I look forward to all that will be revealed here over time. Thank you for being faithful to the vision God laid on your hearts. Your faith and courage are truly amazing. Blessings and hugs! 🙂 x

    • Joy, we have walked this illness road together for several years as your words were paired with my images at Outside the City Gates. It was an honor to “meet” you, a privilege to work with you. THANK YOU for these words today! <3

  5. Purposed indeed Cindee! Such a holy calling. So very needed today. God is in this and your patience and obedience in this high calling will sure touch many weary souls. I am cheering you on and praying alongside you. May his joy continue to be your strength. Love you!

  6. What a wonderful and needed ministry God has led you to! For those without a chronic illness it leads to understanding and your message is applicable in many directions. God bless you and your ministry!

  7. While in NC at the end of March, I took night walks on the beach, praying out loud as I walked. I prayed for you every night, not really knowing many specifics, but finding such comfort and joy in lifting you and your fledgling ministry before God. It thrills me to read how the specifics are becoming known and how Chronic Joy is taking flight. God bless you, Cindee!

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