Though I Sit In Darkness
These vignettes from the past depict my ongoing struggle with depression. I’m either too numb to feel anything or the pendulum swings to the opposite extreme.
Author and Professor
Terry is a Faculty Emeritus and an adjunct professor in Church Ministries at Columbia International University. He and his wife, Dolly, have been married for 50 years and share two sons, a daughter-in-law, and a grandson. Terry writes about faith and depression at Penetrating the Darkness. His latest book, Oh God, I’m Dying! How God Redeems Pain for Our Good and His Glory tells of God's sustaining grace in the life of co-author Dr. Mark Smith, who is an effective Christian university president despite suffering daily pain from a near-fatal accident.
These vignettes from the past depict my ongoing struggle with depression. I’m either too numb to feel anything or the pendulum swings to the opposite extreme.
As I share my story of depression and what I've seen in the dark, my tears descend like falling rain. Their constant flow reveals the pain of much regret; of fragile heart. I cannot stop them once they start.
What keeps me from following through on suicidal thoughts - other than the grace of God - is the pain I would cause my loved ones...