Blog Posts

  • Spoons and the Savior - The last time I saw my older brother, I was being wheeled away in a wheelchair. I’d been visiting him and his wife while in the city for a medical appointment, and I was heading home. Excited to see my boys, I woke up early to discover searing pain in my body, especially my back.…
  • Grappling with the “Shame” of Having a Rare Invisible Illness - In 2016, I realized how much shame I was carrying because I was still unwell, over 20 months after a ladder fall left me with a debilitating spinal fluid (CSF) leak. Reading Brené Brown’s book, Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent and Lead, caused me to realize how destructive shame can be…
  • Brave is Hoping Again - All week, I’ve been thinking about bravery. What makes us brave? Do we do brave things every day, or is bravery reserved for the big, scary things? Certainly, bravery and courage are needed for the step-out-in-faith, outcome-not-certain, actions. Perhaps that’s changing jobs, starting your own business, or deciding to leave your job to be a…
  • Fruitful in Affliction - Recently my 17-year-old daughter, Anna, sat down at the piano before a room full of onlookers. She sat there so gracefully, so beautiful that no one would have ever guessed the huge medical challenges she was facing in her life – the chronic pain that had kept her from the piano over the last month.…
  • The ‘Shame’ of Chronic Illness and Pain - “Shame derives its power from being unspeakable…. If we cultivate enough awareness about shame to name it and speak to it, we’ve basically cut it off at the knees. Shame hates having words wrapped around it. If we speak shame, it begins to wither.” Brené Brown Over the summer, I read Brené Brown’s fabulous book…
  • Two Questions, Two Answers - The following is a poem I wrote a few years ago in the midst of a severe chronic illness. I still suffer from chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. One of the difficult aspects of living with a chronic illness is waking up every day and feeling the disappointment of yet another day of dreams lost…
  • Hope is Real - Imagine every day organizing your schedule around what will minimize your pain. You wake up, take a shower, brush your teeth, put on deodorant then plan your schedule around activities that you know will exacerbate your chronic pain. How miserable does that sound! Yet, this is what I think through most days. Between my sophomore…
  • Making the Good Days Count - It’s easy to get caught up in the pain and emotions that come with the bad days. They’re overwhelming. But what I’ve learned while dealing with a chronic illness is that you’ve got to appreciate the good days. You have to make the good days count. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis when I was…
  • When Healing Doesn’t Happen - Today is a pain day. Every once in awhile, they creep up. The pain is severe and uncontrollable and obviously, unwelcome. I have had people ask me why God doesn’t heal me. I’ve had people ask me if I have even asked for healing. I have had people ask me if I believe He can…
  • Lost at Sea - DEPRESSION ISN’T ALWAYS EASY TO UNDERSTAND, BUT WE CAN OFFER COMPANIONSHIP TO THOSE ADRIFT ON ITS TURBULENT WATERS. Six years ago, my sister, Rachel, drifted out to sea—not a body of water, but the dark depths of depression. Looking back, I shouldn’t have been surprised. Family crises, chronic health problems, and other factors combined for…
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